Being Alive - Despite All the Pitfalls & All the Shit - Is Just So Damn Good!

I believe in reincarnation and with full conviction, I believe that in my past life I was an atrocious person. When I love, I love passionately. I love with all my heart; I love with total and reckless abandon. But when I hate, I’ll just ignore you. I burn bridges, dump people just like that. When people are mean to me, I am meaner to them. But when people are good to me, I am a hundred-fold good to them. When I miss someone, I don’t want to see that person. When I was a kid, I wanted to be a teacher, but now that I’m grown up, I want to be a student. When I’m hurt, I cry. And when I cry, I hurt no more. I break free from the stereotype, goody2x, simpleton girls. One moment I am taciturn and elusive, the next moment I am a silly chatterbox; cracking jokes, shrieking like banshee, talking nonsense, laughing hysterically. I am impetuous, I don’t plan ahead, and I decide the moment I feel like it. I am not judgmental and belligerent, but in every fight I encounter, I am always right. Hehehe... Patience has never been one of my strongest points. I have an independent streak that many people misconstrued as stubbornness. I see the world in 400/400 vision, I must admit it is vague, unclear, but beautiful! I intoxicate myself with sunflower’s delicate beauty and hyacinth’s sweet smell. I keep on telling myself to live the present and look forward to the future. But deep down, I look back and reminisce the bleak past. I’m a romantic fool but ironically, I don’t believe in my own happy-ending. I’m a lunatic idealist and I cry every time I watch Brave Heart. I hate banterers. I don’t believe in accidents. Everything that happens is bound to happen. We are nothing but little pigments of the grand plan spun by God’s hand. I don’t intend to end my life with a PERIOD; I want to end it with a BANG! I believe in paradoxical, contradictory myriad of ideas, but I only live ONE mantra: BE HAPPY. I am happy, and screamingly alive!

Being alive, despite all the pitfalls and all the shit, is just so damn good!